Reflections on 2020/2021 : Mariam Yusuf
Blog, March 7, 2022
These last two years have been challenging. One category of people had a particularly tough time.
People with limited resources, people with no place to call home.
People forced to choose between clothing, food, and toiletries – necessities, I should say – felt like luxuries.
Before Covid invaded, the situation of surviving was bad: one could barely imagine how this group of people managed through the pandemic. They are people seeking asylum, living with restrictions – not allowed to work, with limited access to higher education, some of them are destitute with literally nothing. It’s not news anymore, it’s almost becoming a norm.
Now I want to think outside the box, an expression I have come to learn. Instead, I am thinking inside the box. I feel like I am moving forwards never, backward sometimes, stagnant almost, that is my box, and probably other people seeking asylum share the same sentiments.
I ended the year 2021 on a high. I got excited to have had the opportunity to create a website that would give me and others a platform to express ourselves. Big step – I call it an open diary to have a conversation with someone.
Sometimes I feel I am walking on a long road that does not seem to have a destination. I have this idea in my head of where I am going to, I get mixed feelings wanting to stop as it feels I am heading nowhere. Emotionally and mentally drained, I want to give up. There is an imaginary brick wall that stops me all the time I make progress.
My mind tells me that something needs to change. What should I do to make this happen? Am I not doing enough or just not doing it right? This is not the answer I am looking for. Could this be the reason why I feel there is this long road? This is just my mind running wild and I feel that whatever I am involved with seems unachievable. Some people may have felt the same way.
January has come and gone quickly. February – it is a month of love, I received and shared love with the most amazing people who have impacted my life in a very positive way. We need to spread that love throughout the year and forever really.
We are in March, yeah, time to celebrate women again. International Women’s Day. I want to celebrate me; with my achievements, this has empowered me to reach for the sky. It will not be an easy ride. With support from others, together we can make a better environment for everyone to thrive…